I tend to stay cheery and upbeat on my blog. It is a big part of who I am, however, there is another side of me that pops up every now again and that is the part of me that deals with depression and anxiety. I have been dealing with that a lot this week. Today is the first day all week where I feel like I can smile from the heart. I even got dressed. Make up and all! For those who get depressed, you know what a big deal that is.
Depression is a funny thing. I can say to myself:
My kids are healthy! Many parents are dealing with childhood cancer.
My husband loves me! Many women are on their own.
I have a home! Many are homeless.
And I can be truly grateful for those things, along with 100's of other things I could list, but the depression will not lift. Sometimes I feel worse because I have been given so much and blessed so greatly by God and I sit here depressed. I hate being in that place...
I began to read John Piper's booklet, "When the Darkness Will Not Lift." Though I don't wish depression on anyone, it's good to know that there are amazing godly men and women, who have dealt with depression, too. It's an encouragement to me, that's why I am sharing a bit about my depression and anxiety with you all today. Perhaps someone will stumble across my blog who also struggles with depression and will be encouraged to know that there is someone who understands.